I am still struggling with the effects of whatever is going on in my head. I can only describe it as a small fuzzy wash cloth that is sitting across the front of my lobes the the middle of my head and it is making my brain fuzzy. Similarly it is attached the middle of my chest and goes down to the pit of my stomach where I haven't felt quite right in days.
I tried blogging the other day..but it was mostly gobbly gook. It was definitely funny.
Last week when I was put in the hospital they found out I had High Blood Pressure. More importantly they did an MRI on my brain. Let me share something with you all. MRI's terrify me. 10 years ago I got stuck in one...a brand new machine and they couldn't get me out. The three lab techs were laughing hysterically as I was flailing my legs and my worse nightmare had come to fruition. So...I do not care for MRI's.
The nurse understood this and I told the Doctor. They prescribed valium and they also gave me morphine at the same time. I was taking morphine for my headaches and neuropathy in hands and feet. It calmed me down, but they sat me outside the MRI machine for 45 minutes. The Tech that finally helped me in, his name was Peter. A great guy. We did a trial...and I failed it. “I Want OUT!” Peter took me out. Then I just sat on the table knowing the test has to be done. I asked Peter...just stand there and put me in for two minutes. As he die so I prayed for the peace of God.
It was uncomfortable, I never opened my eyes, and I never stopped praying. After two minutes I told Peter we could do the tests. His reply, “listen, even if we just get one scan, that is great.” I continue to pray.
As soon as the machine starts to turn or rumble....I start to laugh. I laughed louder and louder almost to hysterics. God's Holy laughter. I have never experienced it. It was wonderful. Together he and I laughed at my fear. It lasted for 30 secs. Nobody from the control booth said a thing. I knew they heard it. Halfway through I started laughing again. God is good.
Do you know what is even better? The neurologist came back with my MRI. My brain is atrophied from an old accident. However it is perfectly clear. The lesions I had in 1997 are totally clear. A pure miracle. God is good.
So I sit here still with some further info to share in the future. My head is spinning and my chest hurts but I wanted to share with you all God's Grace in my life.
Peace