Changes...
Yes..my life is changing. I can't sleep. My feet are screaming. They hurt. Blah Blah Blah Blah Blah.
I just gave this wonderful testimony in church 3 weeks ago about what is going on with my blood work. A year ago my Doctor gave me my Alamo speech. He told me if I was fighting the Alamo, and if I did not take my medications correctly, I was just going to lose the battle much quicker. Well, will put the chart up next week and show you folks, it is pretty cool....I started taking my meds..and my Viral Load instantly got better. The HIV became undetectable in my blood. And...my T-cells, which are the eyes of my immune system, went up to 270. They have always hovered around 100. Normal people like you, your T-cells are around 1000. This week I found out my T-cells were 360!.
But....a side effect of HIV and my medications is neuropathy. A damage and burning of nerve endings, particularly in my hands and feet. (my left hand and both feet) It has always been a problem in my feet but over the past two weeks...it has gotten increasingly worse, exponentially worse. I can't walk for the first hour when I get up in the morning. I can barely make it down the hall to the bathroom when I first wake up. I have to walk off the neuropathy and I am in a Catch 22 what in how to treat it...(narcotics)
I have had some pretty good crying sessions with God... and I know I have some really good support from all of my friends. I am rubbing my left hand right now, it is numb.
Last night I was prayed over, and I knew I was going to have to release ministry. I am involved with a lot of the physical aspects of our church, the grunt work. We are a portable church and we must set up for 150-170 people every week. I have been doing this almost since I have been called to to Sonrise 5 years ago. Believe me....I am really really able to do this,release ministry, and it is a wonderful thing to think that our church has men in it now that I can easily hand what I do over to them. God is good. Always. I am watching others grow, it is what I have prayed for since I came to Sonrise. I assist in growing men, and I say that humbly.
It is interesting....yesterday my caseworker (HIV) (you have no idea how priviliged I am) mentioned taking courses at the college..... Public speaking...Diction...Power Point... All things that I love...and Professors that I know...
I think my life is changing...
Such is Sanctification...
I Love God.